Paralyzed by Fear and Anxiety When It Comes To Divorce?

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By Ann Cerney, LCPC, Divorced Girl Smiling Contributor, Counselor, Divorce Mediator, Coach

It’s something that you’ve thought about for a long time. You’ve been dissatisfied with your marriage for years, yet here you still are. The idea of separating from him or her leaves you feeling a range of emotions from terrified to exhilarated. You want to make a change to make your life better, yet you feel paralyzed by fear and anxiety. Very confusing, right?

There is nothing wrong with you.

Try not to feel defeated. Feeling paralyzed by fear and anxiety can be a form of self-protection, to keep you from making decisions before you are fully prepared. Deciding to end a marriage is a psychologically, emotionally challenging experience.

The magnitude of the decision often creates intense anxiety, which leads to varying degrees of denial, avoidance, shut down, and again, feeling paralyzed by fear and anxiety. This translates to: ‘staying put’.

It’s important to remember that there is a cost to doing nothing.

Ironically, the same self-protective reaction to thoughts of leaving the marriage can ultimately lead to harmful effects on you and your psyche. Pushing down your inner voice will take a toll on you, and the effects show up in time.

Just how do they show up? It can be in the form of depression, apathy, anger, hopelessness, or despair. In order to avoid these unpleasant feelings, our defense systems can get creative, and often self-sabotaging.

 

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This can be where infidelity, substance abuse, process addictions like porn and gambling, and other unhealthy behaviors can get started. These are all desperate attempts to make you feel better again, but they are self-defeating.

Underneath desperation is despair. Those who are living in a marriage that is toxic or unfulfilling in a deep way are in pain. The despair can only go on for so long before something gives.

Try something different.

Before you become any more affected by this vicious cycle, it’s worth taking another approach. A proactive, honest, and direct approach. With yourself and your partner. There are steps to take when you’ve reached the tipping point. Only you know where that is, but if you see yourself in any of these descriptions, this may be the time to get real.

Here are 7  Steps Toward Ending That Feeling of Being Paralyzed By Fear and Anxiety When It Comes to Divorce

1. Face the truth.

The energy you have spent trying to ignore your thoughts and feelings is draining. It is keeping you from having the most fulfilling life possible. First, come clean with yourself. Just breathe into the message that your inner voice has been whispering – you are no longer able to sustain this marital relationship. Look around – you’re still here. The knowledge of this is not going to kill you or anyone else. Just face your truth … without judgement.

2. Shoot down the blaming, shaming, and fear mongering voice inside you.

When you make space for your truth, it may immediately be shot down by another voice inside – the critic, or blamer. Recognize that this voice has been part of what kept you from listening to your truth for so long. Every time you began to even consider your feelings in the past, your critical voice smacked you down. Now, you will have to really take a look at your blamer. What is its purpose? To intimidate you into submission? Are your ideas about leaving your marriage really that dangerous? To whom? It’s important to do some reality testing on this nasty little tyrant. Practice steps 1 and 2 as needed.

 

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3. Write down your truth.

Use an online journal with a password, to keep it 100% confidential and safe. When we write our innermost thoughts and feelings, no matter how scary, they become less intimidating. They also become more real. Allow yourself to dream about what your life would be like if you did take action. Don’t let yourself veer into fear-based thinking about your feelings, for once. You can go back and erase, but your wisest self already saw what you wrote. There’s no going back on that one. Stand in your truth. Practice doing this right before you fall asleep and let yourself marinate in it all night.

4. Talk about these thoughts and feelings with someone who is a natural part of your life, someone you know you can trust.

Bring the truth into your life by sharing it with a trusted colleague, friend, sister, brother, or neighbor. Your truth has probably been buried for a long time. If this is difficult, you may have been trying to live up to a certain image – the perfect mom, wife, husband, son, professional person, etc. There is no perfect. Try letting the mask down, and you will be surprised at the love that people will show you.

5. Stop engaging in those desperate compensatory behaviors, if you can.

If you were staying up late at night and eating a gallon of ice cream, or drinking a bottle of wine, or having an affair with your dentist, compulsively shopping online, or getting sucked into porn, stop it now. If allowed to continue, this behavior has the potential to take on a life of its own. If it hasn’t already. This desperate reaction to your own anxiety about leaving your marriage is only keeping you stuck. Get help if you need to. There are professionals who specialize in every one of these issues. Use the internet to find one, or ask around for referrals.

6. When you’ve mastered steps 1 through 5, it’s time to share your truest thoughts and feelings with your spouse.

If you are fearful about sharing your thoughts and feelings with your spouse, being fully transparent, because you suspect your spouse is abusive, a narcissist, or a highly reactive drama queen/king, talk with a professional first.

In most other cases, have your truth scripted out, to avoid becoming redirected, or even worse, paralyzed in the conversation. Be prepared for his or her challenges to your conclusion that the marriage is over for you. Remember, he or she is not in the same emotional space as you.

Be ready for an attack on you, because he or she will likely interpret your feelings as a sign that they’ve done something wrong. You can reassure your spouse that, although the marriage is not one person’s sole responsibility, you are accepting responsibility for how you feel now. This conversation will be the opening of a door for you. You’ve spoken your truth now, unapologetically and without shame or blame. Unless this conversation has the effect of changing your outlook on your marriage, and it sometimes does, there is no going back. If that is the case with you, the next step is essential.

 

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7. Give your partner some time to digest and process what you shared with him or her, that you want to end your marriage.

Having said that, realize that no amount of time is going to help him or her reach the same emotional resolution you have. You have grieved the loss of what you’d hoped for in your marriage – he or she has not. You have suffered by hiding the truth from your spouse, others, and most importantly, yourself. You’ve possibly harmed yourself by engaging in desperate behavior to keep the anger, sadness, fear, and regret about your marriage from eating you alive.

 

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Ann Cerney, LCPC is a counselor, mediator, and coach for people considering, going through, or redefining their life after a divorce. A graduate of Benedictine University with a Masters in Clinical Psychology, Ann is trained in discernment counseling and helps people decide next steps for their marriage. Ann believes that feeling empowered rather than entitled is the most important factor in living a fulfilled life, divorced or married. Ann’s sweet spot is working with people she calls “Divorcelings”, or those who feel wrongly divorced or separated. To learn more, visit her site.

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One Response to “Paralyzed by Fear and Anxiety When It Comes To Divorce?”

  1. J walker

    Well, I am the receiver of the “I love you but not as a husband”. Why go so long and not fight for someone you once loved? Just pretend for years while the internal damage gets worse. Now I have been on a road of discovery and left standing in the ruins. I don’t understand why she would just let it happen and not fight for me? I have loved and still love this woman for the last 30 years. So far all I can say of me is that I have not loved myself most of my life. Doesn’t make for a happy husband but no abuse or addiction. Supportive since day one. I own how I was and have fixed a lot of that broken part of me. Our life could be great and we would want for nothing but…..Her reasoning “I don’t know why I feel how I feel”.

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