Over 40 and Single again: Over the Hill or a lucky chance to Start Over?


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By Jackie Pilossoph, Divorced Girl Smiling Editor-in-Chief

 “I’m 46 years old. Who’s going to want me??”

“My ex already has a girlfriend and I haven’t been on one date in over a year. Where’s the justice in that?”

 “There are so many wonderful, smart, beautiful divorced women out there and all the men are either drug addicts, alcoholics, psychos, control freaks or cheaters. You do the math.”

  These quotes are some of the things divorced or separated women have said to me in the past few years, and I have to say, I can certainly relate. Finding myself single again at 41 years old was not fun. Not only was I going through the pain of a divorce, mourning the failure of my marriage, dealing with my two young kids’ feelings about daddy moving out, and worrying about finances, but now I had to go back out there into the nightmare world of dating?! Yikes. It was scary. And depressing. And horrifying at times. I had a few situations that were so unbelievable, that the stories ended up in my novel, FREE GIFT WITH PURCHASE. And there were times I seriously couldn’t believe why God would keep sending me loser after loser after loser.

 

But, I have to be honest, there was an element of excitement to being single. After all, I was starting over. I was getting a second chance at happiness. I was leaving a bad, bad situation that brought me to tears for years before I officially got separated. I was getting away from a marriage that wasn’t making either one of us happy, and I was moving into the unknown. And the unknown was semi-attractive, in the sense that at least it wasn’t “the known” which was constant fighting, misery, fear, sadness and loneliness.

 

So, into the unknown I went, and now it’s almost seven years later. Getting to the point where I am today, however wasn’t easy. It took:

 

  1.  a lot of self-introspection
  2. the guts to admit my faults and my insecurities
  3. hard work to get myself where I want to be professionally, (I’m not even there yet)
  4. learning the single mother life and how to put my kids first above everything, no matter the price.
  5. taking time to be alone/not dating anyone and feeling like I might die of loneliness at times
  6. making mistakes and fessing up to them and not being too hard on myself
  7. getting myself to eat healthier and realizing the importance of good physical health
  8.  learning how to accept and let go of anger and not become bitter
  9.  courage to face life alone.

 

I realized I was the leader of my little family, and I had to take the role as the rock solid one, the go-to person, and the one my little kids could depend on 100% all the time. And honestly, the responsibility feels good. It gives my life purpose and meaning and joy that I can’t even begin to explain. So, with all that said, that is the first thing on my list of 4 advantages to starting over at 40.

 

  1. Being responsible feels good. It feels independent and it gives you self worth.

 

  1. You’re starting over but you’re better equipped. In other words, think about when you started dating, around age 18 or so. Think about how clueless and naïve and how hurt you got when it didn’t work out. Think about all the mistakes you made with men because you were young and you just didn’t know. Now, my girls, you are going into battle with heavier armor, (and by heavy,  I don’t mean pounds, I mean more knowledge and experience!) You’ve learned, you’ve made mistakes,  you know what to look for, you recognize the red flags, you’re smoother, you’re smarter, you’re wittier. You’ve got it goin’ on!  Show him the goods!

 

  1. The clock isn’t ticking to get married and have kids, so you can just have fun. I can remember being panicked in my 30’s, wanting to have kids so desperately and feeling like I would never meet anyone in time to have that happen. Well, guess what? I have my kids and I wouldn’t trade them for the world. And now, all I have is time. Time to have fun, time to enjoy myself, time to get to know interesting people. And that’s a beautiful feeling. One thing I see that bothers me a lot is when men and women whose ink on the divorce papers is still drying, and they are getting married again. Maybe it’s me, but what’s the rush? You were just married. You see how that went. Why on earth do you want to do it again so quickly? Breathe. Enjoy being by yourself. Learn to appreciate it. Don’t be afraid to NOT be married.

 

 

  1. 4.       You are more self confident. This is a true story. I was at a bar about a year ago with my girlfriend (who is my age) and we started talking to these young guys who looked like they were in their 20’s. We weren’t flirting. We weren’t trying to pick them up. We were just chit chatting. Their girlfriends walked into the bar (about the same age as the guys) and I instantly got the sense they felt threatened by us. I seriously could not believe it. They were so insecure and rude and territorial with their guys. If I were them, I would have been thinking, ‘Oh, these older ladies are so cute.’ Being older means feeling more secure in your own skin, highlighting your outer beauty, and doing your best to look your best physically. But, it also means realizing that what’s inside is so much more valuable, and if you have self-confidence and self-assurance, and you hold your head high, your shoulders back, and walk with pride and grace, I think that really comes across when you are meeting men.

 

 

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19 Responses to “Over 40 and Single again: Over the Hill or a lucky chance to Start Over?”

  1. Simon Solomon

    Another terrifc article that I can totally relate to. I’m living this scenario at this particular time in my life and reading these insightful blogs helps me stay grounded to reality. It’s a tough dating world out there these days. Thank you Jackie for the clarity you bring to the topic.

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  2. mikey

    Great article! Great blog!
    They read a study on the radio the other day that asked men and women at what age are women most physically attractive and just attractive. The answers came out to about 32 for physical, but 38 for attractive in general. I think that just shows how confidence and wisdom are.

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  3. ajc

    Thank you for this article. I have just recently split up with my husband after 7+ years of marriage. He was a MUCH younger guy, and for the most part, I don’t regret our marriage because I deeply loved him for a time, am sure he loved me, and I still care a great deal about him and will probably always consider him one of my best friends. We are just…not good together. Still, now I find myself at 43, with a daughter who’s gonna be moving out in a couple years. I’ve never been one to go out much, if at all, I don’t have a huge social circle (most of my friends are “cyber people” I only know online), and I am out of shape and not very physically attractive. I was a single mom before he came along for 9 years, and I had resigned myself to being single then, but now that I’ve had someone, I am terrified of never being with someone again, never having someone to kiss me goodnight or hold me on his shoulder while I’m falling asleep. This article is empowering and encouraging in a time when I really need that, and I thank you for it.

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    • Liz

      Ajc, this sounds like my life. The much younger guy, feeling unattractive and out of shape but even worst because I had 3 kids with youngster….lol It’s awful when my 3 yr old cries for his dad but he’s an alcoholic and in 6 years we are going no where. He brought out the worst in me and we had nothing in common. It will be so hard for me to find someone because I’m also a burn victim. I don’t know if I’m terrified or relieved. I worry so much about the financial situation. I wish you the best of luck.

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    • Avary

      ajc, if you are there, please chime in and let me know. I have some questions for you after all this time.

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  4. Debbiedoesdivorce

    This blog/s are so helpful in building back our “self-worth” . I just have to thank you for your “makes perfect sense” inspiration. I’m 46 w/ a 4yr younger husband and a job as Mngr at a local well, let’s just say I’ll never be 20 something again (as if I’d choose to) or fit into xxsmall orange short shorts makes it blatantly obvious he’s now far too young for my goals and priorities. I’m afraid of this 2nd divorce (1st only 3yrs huge boo boo) but I feel a little excited for what is up ahead! My boys are grown and wouldn’t be too disapointed in our parting ways. I’m only gonna be burdened with one “not married responsibility” and that is taking out the trash. I can do this with so much more enthusiasm AND grace! Thanks for your input/direction!

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  5. Caspar

    Your writing is very real and from the heart. In particular the 9 points you make about your 7 year journey to get to where you are now. I always think its useful to know where you are going and what direction.

    The statement ..”life is xxxx” always brings me back to a reality check and then from there I can decide what I’m going to do next. In my case, “Life is an audacious daring adventure”. Clearly this will be different from person to person and what they believe in. Whatever that compass is (I got this reference here – http://www.strictlydating.com/dating-at-40-the-10-step-guaranteed-success-plan/) will dictate how you approach things.

    So, for me, dating at 42 is an adventure. It’s an opportunity to have fun, to connect with people and to enjoy life. One of my mentors always asks the question – is this the beginning or the end. If you always see it as the beginning, you’ll have a whole different experience than if you see it as the end. Life really is just beginning no matter what age you’re at. Today truly is the first day of the rest of your life. You were put here to enjoy life. Have fun : )

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  6. Teeny

    I am a single mom of a 16 year old and a 2 year old. My 16 year old is from my first husband and we have a great relationship. My 2 year olds father and I broke up a week before our son turned a year old. About 6 weeks after we split I found out he was having an affair with my younger sister. They are still together and it had pretty much shattered my self confidence as far as dating. I had my youngest a week before I turned 40 and I had gained 60 lbs mostly due to being high risk and not being able to work out. Now I am 42 and single and have no time to work out and I am completely intimidated about dating. On the up side I have a great job and I totally financially secure! Own my own home and take great care of my kids. Any advise?

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  7. jenny

    I’m very worried about my marriage. I don’t know how to stop things from spiraling out of control. I have 3 children at home living with us. I know they will be devastated when it ends inevitably it is going too. My husband of 14 years longs to make sure he isn’t wasting more time with me when he could be happy with someone else. I just don’t know how to start over. I I guess the good thing about it is I am financially stable, still in on shape. I would be worries about all the weirdo in dating game too.

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  8. michael

    I am a 52 year old man who has been single for 18 years , never heard about your book ! I try to date but with little success I have every thing I want except a women to love and spoil ! my marriage failed because my ex after 12 years together and a 8 year old daughter who wasn’t mine found that out during the divorce and also that I cant have children left me for a women :-(.So don’t give up girls there are guys out there that can give you the love you are dreaming about and can love your children like they were there own just don’t let you emotions cloud you good sense also’ its all right to be single even though I believe that we were all made to be with someone ! we all come with baggage for me there are three basic parts to a relationship financial ,physical and emotional its very rare to find a person that’s a perfect fit in all respects; so size and shape don’t matter just a desire to b together.

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  9. Smiling

    Enjoyed your article. I’ve been divorced for almost eight years now and have poured all of my energy and time into my 3 children, 22, 15 and 12. I constantly think reflect on who I am as a 44 year old woman. I haven’t dated at all and do not even know how to get back put in the dating scene. Thank you for sharing your experience, it helped me to realize that many share my experience And self discovery is fantastic! One day I plan to date again but for now thanks for sharing and hearing the voice of so many divorced single parents. It’s helps to know we are not alone

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  10. Rosie Lively

    I am a single mom of three and just went through a divorce. I am about to turn forty and I’m worried about not working again. Would you please send me your book pro bono?

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