I don’t know any divorced men or women who don’t have days or weeks or months when things seem to be imploding in their worlds. In my own situation, I describe those periods of time as feeling like I’m in a dodge ball game, and the balls just keep trying to hit me, and I’m constantly trying to dodge them. And when I do dodge one, here comes another one! So, when I got this e-mail from a divorced woman asking for a group hug, I had to post it. I can’t actually give her a hug, but I want to try to help her.
This week my ex is forcing us to go to a parenting consultant because he wants to force our kid into a school I hate. One of my dearest friends just got news of the big B.C. and is taking it really hard (who wouldn’t???!!). My dad had his third knee replacement surgery on the same knee in three weeks and is fighting an infection. I’m STILL not working after a year of “self-employment” and despite 12 years of solid professional experience, so I’m applying for part time sales associate jobs at the outlet mall so that I can feed my kid and pay my rent. Divorce ripped me apart, but the rest of life goes on and a lot of it is hard too.
The world seems to have lost its soul this week, and I can’t take the positivity dogma. We can be sad and hurting and crushed and honor that experience with solemnity and still choose to go on and keep trying to hope for a brighter day.
If one more person says “everything’s going to be just fine” or “all is as it should be” or the WORST “God has a plan for you” I’m going to blow my top. So thank you for the real.
Maybe we can all just collectively say “OW!!!!!” have some massive group hug, share some cool water and then heave our loads up on our backs once more and take another step forward and love each other. Peace.
Here’s how I think I can help. Since we can’t do a massive group hug physically, can we do an e-group hug? Here’s my attempt to write some words down that might feel semi-equivalent to a massive group hug.
I too can’t stand when people say “everything’s going to be just fine,” or the other two, but realize that people don’t really know what else to say and they are just trying to make you feel better.
Here’s what I want to acknowledge. Everyone has shit. Everyone. I have it, really wealthy people have it, sick people have it, happily married people even have it. My dad always says having crap in your life makes you appreciate all the good stuff. And if you think about it, there is soooooooooo much good stuff in our lives! But, we tend to focus on the problems. But if you think about it, you woke up today and all your body parts are working. But you didn’t think about that. You made coffee and you probably really enjoyed it. But you didn’t think about how great it tastes or even that your coffee maker worked. Then your kids woke up. Simply looking at their beautiful faces is a miracle in and of itself. There really is nothing better.
Here’s what I want to tell this reader (who I absolutely adore.) Every day is your gift and you can make choices every single minute. You can’t control your friend’s cancer or your dad’s pain or your controlling ex. (all for which I’m so sorry-please don’t think I’m taking those lightly.) But, you can make choices to make your day great, just by enjoying simple, little things. Your child’s little hand, his or her chubby cheeks, a yoga class, a jog, a prayer to God, a call to your best childhood friend, a kind gesture, a new pair of sandals, eating as many chocolate covered caramels as you want, looking in the mirror and liking what you see (self-love), flirting with someone you are attracted to, watching a great movie, -suggestion: Silver Linings Playbook!!!, and lastly, a HUG!
Your crap (and everyone else’s) is going to eventually go away and more of it will come, going back to the dodge ball analogy. Nothing you can do. So, control what you can: YOUR happiness.
Lastly, I can’t resist quoting Alanis Morissette’s Isn’t it Ironic: Life has a funny way of sneaking upon you when you think everything’s ok and everything’s going right. And life has a funny way of helping you out when you think everything’s gone wrong and everything blows up in your face.
Right?! That will happen for you too! Advice: Keep the ship headed North. Don’t make any turns. (I stole that one from my dad, too) meaning, have a goal and keep working towards it.
I’m now releasing myself from the group hug, in hopes I was of some help. Now, hug yourselves! To my reader who wrote this: you’re doing great! I hope this is a better week!